FEELING LEFT IN MOURNING

LAMENTATION AND GRIEF

Today’s principle focus is on the compassion and deep seeded love that is birthed from a time of lamentation and grief.

Scripture of the day: When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. “Where have you laid him?” he asked. “Come and see, Lord,” they replied. Jesus wept. Then the Jews said, “See how he loved him!” John 11:33-36

Today’s Positive Words of Affirmation and Encouraging Words to Live By: “I will allow myself to feel pain. I will embrace the compassion that comes from the pain of loss. I will not allow the enemy to rob me of my compassionate spirit any longer. I walk, talk, and breathe the kind of love that has been birthed from loving someone, and losing them. I allow myself will mourn for the lost, and be encouraged and comforted by the Father.”

Ask yourself: Where do I see myself on a scale of 1-10 in the area of “Righteous Mourning and Compassion”?

I was raised a “winner”. Seemingly ingrained in me from birth, an “I can do” spirit that has gotten me through some of the most strenuous times. As I consistently found/find things “logical”, I have been able to accept and move on through periods of grief, pain, and sorrow. Unfortunately for me however, I know that when I go into these stiff-upper-lip zones, I loose all compassion and become void of any personality. Impressed upon me by society: the meek are weaklings, and all prosperity lies in a “good attitude”. Sad to say, a part of me (my compassion) was lost.

I came head on with my lack of compassion last night. I was in a situation where I had come face to face with a challenging person. As I dug deep within myself, there was no compassion found in me to fall on. I was being challenged by a spirit (in another person), that I had never come in contact with before. As the usual, I found myself “blowing” it off in a giggle and a smile and then vacating the premises. Only to be rebuking myself in the car on the way home for not having the spiritual strength to stand up to the person, love them anyway, and show them a true mournful love that a Saint would do for a lost man or woman. What I “blew off” was in an attempt to keep everything, “positive”. When in reality, it was a band-aided emotional response to “cover up” pain with a phony, “You can do it winner”, pat on the back.

Jesus had moments of weeping and grieving, and was overcome with compassion. I believe that through His legitimate cries out to God, what was built within Him was a renewed sense of compassion and a deeper love than any “smile” could do. Smiles don’t always mean “I love you.” Sometimes “I love you”, best comes with a friend who will cry with you, and lay on the floor in anguish over your sores. This is what I am going to focus on today… TRUE honest to GOD… feelings.

So far so good. I woke up thinking about emotions and feelings, and grief. I have been lamenting for the lost. (Of course I nearly broke down in tears at the Wal-Mart today when I saw a little girl playing with a dolly, then on the way home listening to worship music, then as I got home and listened to my children play… you get the picture) I have not been on an emotional “high” or “low”, I have been in a consistent state of allowing my spirit and physical heart to beat in sync. What an amazing feeling, a physical/spiritual connection. A heart that emotes and “feels” what is deep within ones spirit. Crying for a child who is happy, in the Wal-Mart, just playing with a doll. Tears of joy.

CRY OUT TO GOD

Feeling emotions and crying, is a huge part of the human experience. What we need to watch for however is that these tears and mourning are outward expressed, and not inward derived over self. We must continue to cry out to God and allow our mourning to connect us closer and deeper with Him. Allow Him to use your situation to build compassion in you. Watch out for the enemy, he HATES it when we cry out to God, regardless of the situation. The enemy will be right there to encourage you toward feeling sorry for yourself. Mourning isn’t meant for you to feel sorry for yourself it is meant for you to begin to build a long lasting love and compassion for others through crying out to God and finding Jesus in all situations, even loss.

A prayer for today,

Lord God, thank you. Thank you for the type of emotions you are allowing me to feel today. I do not want to become a sterile human being who only smiles and nods. I desire to have a spirit, mind, and body connection that has been established in You. I want to not be so afraid “to feel things in the flesh”, that I escape all feelings whatsoever. You have revealed to me today, that it is a heart of gold that you are after, and it is through the this true and righteous grief, and mourning for the lost that I am able to walk out the type of compassion and desire, that You can use. Thank you Jesus, I love you, in Your name, Amen.

May the Lord God Bless you today and your compassionate hearts

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