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Did You LOOK For Your Miracle Today?

“Today’s the day!”


Mel Fisher (August 21, 1922 – December 19, 1998) was an American treasure hunter best known for finding the 1622 wreck of the Spanishgalleon Nuestra Señora de Atocha named after a shrine in Madrid for protection. He discovered the wreck July 20, 1985. The estimated $450 million cache recovered, known as “The Atocha Motherlode,” included 40 tons of gold and silver; there were some 114,000 of the Spanish silver coins known as “pieces of eight“, gold coins, Colombian emeralds, gold and silver artifacts, and 1000 silver bars. Large as it was, this was only roughly half of the treasure that went down with the Atocha. The wealthiest part of the ship, the stern castle, is yet to be found. Still missing are 300 silver bars and 8 bronze cannons, among other things.

Mel was determined based on conviction that HE was going to find the Atocha. For years and years he searched Florida waters looking for the shipwreck. Every morning before he would venture out he would claim, “Today’s the day!”

Fisher was an Indiana-born former chicken farmer who eventually moved to California and opened the first diving shop in the state. He attended Purdue University and was a member of The Delta Chi Fraternity. In 1953, he married Dolores Horton who became his business partner.


Mel was really on to something you know, more than just gold. His drive, passion, and ambition are all notable qualities and so was his expectation, persistence and determination. While it is true that he had a 450 million+ booty to look forward to, how many people do you know will stick with something and see it through to manifestation? Not many! Even after undergoing tragedy (on July 13, 1975 Mel’s oldest son Dirk, his wife Angel, and diver Rick Gage died after their boat capsized during their quest for treasure), he maintained the course and ten years later found the Atocha.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Matt 6:33

Most Christians feel guilty expecting a daily treasure. As I was thinking about Mel and the Atocha, I began thinking that as soon as he found his treasure his WHOLE life would have gone from “Today’s the day” to “Yesterday was the day”… etc. What a pity! I can not imagine going through my life looking for something HUGE, then finding it, and having it be found forever. I would rather go to God daily for refreshment and a new found direction. That is why Christianity is so important to be taught to others from a relationship stance. Religion says “I found God”, a relationship with God says, “I am finding God daily.”

I hope that you know that entering into a relationship with Christ isn’t a hunt-and-peck soft of game. He is ALWAYS right where we are when we go to Him, but the key is that we must GO TO HIM. Those who practice religion find Him once, maybe thank Him, then go about their business. A relationship looks to Christ as being new every morning, and just as you wake up OVERJOYED on your honeymoon- everyday with Christ is a honeymoon.

The Kingdom of God in this parable, is our Atocha. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. Luke 12:33 God has everything for us; health, finances, relationships, spiritual and physical wholeness. God is our treasure trove of everything we could ever want or need. My question is: Did you go about your day today LOOKING for your miracle?

For as he thinketh in his heart, so [is] he . Proverbs 23:7


I believe what we are called to do is to look at our lives through “God colored glasses”. The Message Version calls it: God-Reality, God-Initiative, and God-Provision. Looking daily for your miracle to manifest isn’t “claiming it till you make it” it is redefining your point of view from one way of looking at things to another. What you used to see as broken, suddenly is fixable. What you used to hunger for, you become full. What you used to think could only happen one way, can now happen differently. In reality, what we are saying isn’t changing anything in the physical (not at first),  but what choose to SEE right away changes everything!   (I can’t SAY pink elephant and manifest one immediately, but if I put on pink sunshades and look through them, I will soon say “PINK ELEPHANT!”)

MIRACLE! BREAKTHROUGH! PEACE! LOVE! JOY! WHOLENESS! I pray that from today on, these types of filters, these GOD filters (all of which were designed by and from God ) WILL be our new lenses!

From this day forward I will choose to:



As we go against the norm, we will rise above mediocrity. But learning methods and formulas for success will only get you so far. Living an OUTSTANDING life, means that you as a believer, will not only know the HOW-TO’S of success but you will also be able to be led by The Spirit in which direction to go. Mel Fisher found the Atocha in Florida (where he was looking), NOT in Peru where he wasn’t looking. The Holy Spirit WILL guide you toward an OUTSTANDING life, we all just need to begin seeing and expecting it!

God bless you my friends as you go about your day today seeking the miraculous manifestation of God Himself reflected and presented right in front of you. Can we see God? YES! He is all around you! If you are BREATHING -it’s a miracle. If you are walking- it’s a miracle. If you have eaten today -it’s a miracle. If you drove anywhere today and got home safely -it’s a miracle. BLESS you as you begin to see EVERYTHING with a new shade of glass, and may the Lord direct you in ALL of your ways!


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Be Prepared to Be Unpopular: Part II, *TIME 4 A CHANGE*

An illustration of me and my trusty laptop, as drawn by my daughter Madeline, age 8


Before we get started with Part II of “Be Prepared to Be Unpopular” , I would like to thank everyone for their kind responses to Wednesday’s posting. Never have I received such overwhelmingly positive reviews to what I have written, and  it melts my heart that the portion of the book that I shared with you was so widely received… this gives me great hope! Thank you very much!

In all honesty, I do my best to bring to you whatever is on my heart for the day. I sit up at night and write between the hours of 9PM and 12AM, each blog/post/article taking around 3 hours to write, edit and publish. This is my pleasure to do, because it is WHAT I believe I can do best in order to serve our Master and show Him my love. I have told my husband repeatedly, “The scariest thing I do on a daily basis is click the button marked ‘PUBLISH'”. This operating in daily trust, faith and honesty is good for me. It is a good thing to do with my life. Praise God He chose me! Praise God He chose you!


3. Popular Thinking is Slow to Embrace Change

Popular thinking loves the status quo. It puts its confidence in the idea of the moment, and holds on to it with all its might. As a result, it resists change and dampens innovation. Donald M. Nelson, former president of the Society of Independent Motion Picture Producers, criticized popular thinking when he asserted, “We must discard the idea that past routine, past ways of doing things, are probably the best ways. On the contrary, we must assume that there is probably a better way to do almost everything. We must stop assuming that a thing which has never been done before probably cannot be done at all.”

4. Popular Thinking Brings Only Average Results

The bottom line? Popular thinking brings mediocre results. Here is popular thinking in a nutshell:

Popular = Normal = Average

It’s the least of the best and the best of the least. We limit our success when we adopt popular thinking. It represents putting in the least energy to just get by. You must reject common thinking if you want to accomplish uncommon results. How Successful People Think, John C. Maxwell, page 86


So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth. Rev 3:16

The Lord is pretty clear about how he feels about “lukewarm” people. According to the original Greek, the word for “lukewarm” is chliaros, which metaphorically means: of the condition of the soul wretchedly fluctuating between a torpor and a fervour of love. Know anyone like that? Someone who is hot one day for Jesus and then cold the next? A person who has a fish on their bumper- then in a few years that fish fades and falls half off- but the driver doesn’t even notice?

There is a “church” not too far from my house that proudly waves a rainbow flag from their roofline. This provokes in me (as a Fundamentalist Christian believer) to be pretty upset. I have even driven by thinking of the various things that I would/could do to that flag! Then however, the Lord calms me down reminding me that “vengeance is His”. I wonder though, if in this churches desire to be “popular” (proudly boasting that they support ALL kinds of lifestyles as ‘Christ-like’), I wonder if they would be offended if something mysteriously happened overnight to “their flag”? Would they be as offended if their flag was destroyed, as if someone came and decimated their cross? (Which now that I think about it -they do not have one outside) Or are they really just acting out a propensity towards lukewarmness and are just going through with the most current and obvious trends.

What I am given to write about daily is NOT popular. These are just my thoughts for the day as an Observationalist, and these are the messages that God entrusts me to pass on to you. Today’s thought is: “If Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego had just been “playing” with fire- they would have gotten burned! Today I Pray that you’re ALL IN, because people who are ON FIRE and SOULED-OUT for Christ can’t be burned! Fire + Fire = Inferno.”

Thank you my dear friends for all of your love, support, and emails of encouragement. I love reading each and everyone of them! I read each one, and receive each message personally, thank you for sending them! I pray today that someone might reach out to you in the next few days, and tell you that YOU are making a difference. As a matter of fact, LET ME BE THE FIRST- YOU ARE MAKING A DIFFERENCE, keep up the GREAT WORK!


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Be Prepared to Be Unpopular Part I, *TIME 4 A CHANGE*

John C. Maxwell is an internationally recognized leadership expert, speaker,

and author who has sold over 16 million books.


We have many books in our house from many different authors. I would venture to say that 90% of them are Christian, and the other 10% are maps and travel books. One of the authors that we have quite a few books from is Dr. John C. Maxwell. Since we have been discussing changing the way we think in this T4AC Series, I thought that I would share with you some from Dr. Maxwell’s book: How Successful People Think:

Chapter 8: Question Popular Thinking

” I’m not an answering machine. I’m a questioning machine. If we have all the answers, how come we’re in such a mess?” – Douglass Cardinal

Economist John Maynard Keynes, whose ideas profoundly influenced economic theory and practices in the twentieth century, asserted, “The difficulty lies not so much in developing new ideas as in escaping from the old ones.” Going against popular thinking can be difficult, whether you are a businessperson bucking company tradition, a pastor introducing new types of music to his church, a new mother rejecting old wives’ tales handed down from her parents, or a teenager ignoring popular styles.

Many of the ideas in this book go against popular thinking. If you value popularity over good thinking, then you will severely limit your potential to learn the tyes of thinking encouraged by this book.

Popular thinking is…

    • Too Average to Understand the Value of Good Thinking,
    • Too Inflexible to Realize the Impact of Changed Thinking,
    • Too Lazy to Master the Process of International Thinking,
    • Too Small to See the Wisdom of Big-picture Thinking,
    • Too Satisfied to Unleash the Potential of Focused Thinking,
    • Too Traditional to Discover the Joy of Creative Thinking,
    • Too Naive to Recognize the Importance of Realistic Thinking,
    • Too Undisciplined to Realize the Power of Strategic Thinking.
    • Too Limiting to Feel the energy of Possibility Thinking,
    • Too Trendy to Embrace the Lessons of Reflective Thinking,
    • Too Proud to Encourage the Participation of Shared Thinking,
    • Too Self-absorbed to Experience the Satisfaction of Unselfish Thinking, and
    • Too Uncommitted to Enjoy the Return of Bottom-line Thinking.

If you want to become a good thinker, then start preparing yourself for the possibility of becoming unpopular.

1. Popular Thinking Sometimes Means Not Thinking

My friend Kevin Myers sums up the idea of popular thinking by saying, “The problem with popular thinking is that it doesn’t require you to think at all.” Good thinking is hard work. If it were easy, everybody would be a good thinker. Unfortunately, many people try to live life the easy way. They don’t want to do the hard work of thinking or pay the price of success. It’s easier to do what other people do and hope that they thought it out.

Look at the stock market recommendations of some experts. By the time they publish their picks, most are following a trend, not creating one or even riding its crest. The people who are going to make money on the stocks they recommend have already done so by the time the general public hears about it. When people blindly follow a trend, they’re not doing their own thinking.

2. Popular Thinking Offers False Hope

Beno Muller-Hill, a professor in the University of Cologne genetics department, tells how one morning in high school he stood last in line of forty students in the schoolyard. His physics teacher had set up a telescope that his students could view a planet and its moon. The first student stepped up to the telescope. He looked through it, but when the teacher asked if he could see anything, the boy said no; his nearsightedness hampered his view. The teacher showed him how to adjust the focus, and the boy finally said he could see the planet and the moon. One by one, the students stepped up to the telescope and saw what they were supposed to see. Finally, the second to last student looked into the telescope and announced that he could see nothing.

“You idiot,” shouted the teacher, “You have to adjust the lenses.”

The student tried, but he finally said, “I still can’t see anything. It is all black.”

The teacher, disgusted, looked through the telescope himself, and then looked up with a strange expression. The lens cap still covered the telescope. None of the students had been able to see anything!

Many people look for safety and security in popular thinking. They figure that if a lot of people are doing something, then it must be right. It must be a good idea. If most people accept it, then it probably represents fairness, equality, compassion, and sensitivity, right? Not necessarily. Popular thinking said the earth was the center of the universe, yet Copernicus studied the stars and planets and proved mathematically that the earth and the other planets in our solar system revolved around the sun. Popular thinking said surgery didn’t require clean instruments, yet Joseph Lister studied the high death rates in hospitals and introduced antiseptic practices that immediately saved lives. Popular thinking said that women shouldn’t have the right to vote, yet people like Emmeline Pankhurst and Susan B. Anthony fought for and won that right. Popular thinking put the Nazis into power in Germany, Hitler’s regime murdered millions and nearly destroyed Europe. We must always remember there is a huge difference between acceptance and intellegence. People may say that there’s safety in numbers, but that’s not always true.

Sometimes it is painfully obvious that popular thinking isn’t good and right. Other times it is less evident. For example, consider the staggering number of people in the United States who have run up large amounts of debt on their credit cards. Anyone who is financially astute will tell you that’s a bad idea. Yet millions follow right along with the popular thinking of buy now, pay later. And so they pay, and pay, and pay. Many promises of popular thinking ring hollow. Don’t let them fool you. (To Be Continued) Pages 81-85

Choosing the road less traveled…

The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few. Luke 10:2


Are you unpopular for the Gospel’s sake? Now I do not mean unpopular in the flower sack dresses- no zipper pants- full unkept beard- no makeup kind of a way, I mean in a “I-LOVE-GOD-TOO-MUCH-TO-DISAPPOINT-HIM” kind of a way. 2011 has been prophesied to be the “judgement” year. Many things are coming to the surface in the Church that before was yet to be revealed. Many things that were never acceptable before (under direct instruction from the Word of God) are now becoming acceptable and becoming popular. Fornicating, lust of the flesh, adultery, idolatry, debt, partying, drunkenness, lasciviousness of ANY kind… all is very popular in the church now-a-day. Confirming 2 Timothy 3:1-5:

But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.

The Message Version says it this way:

Don’t be naive. There are difficult times ahead. As the end approaches, people are going to be self-absorbed, money-hungry, self-promoting, stuck-up, profane, contemptuous of parents, crude, coarse, dog-eat-dog, unbending, slanderers, impulsively wild, savage, cynical, treacherous, ruthless, bloated windbags, addicted to lust, and allergic to God. They’ll make a show of religion, but behind the scenes they’re animals. Stay clear of these people.

As you press into the things of God, His; WHO, WHAT, WHEN, WHERE, and HOW-  you will find yourself become more and more unpopular with these types of people. They will hate you, they will mock you, they will try to control you, and they will try to influence you to change who you are in Christ. Don’t fret over this- this is merely their insecurity speaking, and they are feeling your heat for the Word. Just as you can not hold fire without being burned, so these “popular” people cannot stand to be in the presence of righteousness without their own issues (lack of faith) staring them back in the face. Jesus admonished us all to take the logs out of our own eyes before criticizing others, popular people expect you to have the same log they have… only bigger. After all, you wouldn’t be being “popular” if you didn’t! I suppose that as enough of us in the Body of Christ become wholehearted in Christ… the “unpopular” righteous will become God’s majority! HALLELUJAH! That’s ME! That’s YOU!

God bless you friends as you go about your day today and seek God out for direction and the BEST thing to do for YOU, your family and your life. GOD is SO proud of you and your quality decision that you made to be souled-out to Him, and to walk wholeheartedly! You may be one of the only persons you know, but keep influencing others and don’t worry- pretty soon WE are all going to be the “popular” ones, for God’s tide flows in favor of the righteous and in His PERFECT timing!


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It’s *Time 4 A Change*… NEVER Quit Dreaming!

Hear this, all [ye] people; give ear, all [ye] inhabitants of the world: Both low and high, rich and poor, together. My mouth shall speak of wisdom; and the meditation of my heart [shall be] of understanding.  Psalm 49:1-3


Learning how to listen to God is like fine tuning an instrument. Fine tuning doesn’t just happen, and fine tuned instruments don’t stay in perfect pitch for long. The most recent word that I received from God, and that I am working on is  finishing the book that God gave me to write nearly two years ago. This has taken from me a fine tuned ear in order to hear. The word from the Lord for me, is to have it finished in final edit by May 28, 2011. I know that with God all things are possible, however this still remains a challenge.

I feel compelled today, to tell you a little more about myself. As a mother of five, I work daily to make sure that next to my husband and his needs, my children are my number 1 priority. Our thirteen year old is learning algebra and integers in his mathematic studies. Our ten year old made me breakfast for on Mother’s Day and loves to skateboard and play music. Our daughter is eight, and as I never pushed her to learn how to ride a bike- this last week she decided to start ridding! She just picked it up and WENT! We are all very proud of her. Our four year old and three year old babies are just like twins! They are the best of friends and constantly ask for each other, wondering where the other one is at!

It is a busy life, being a wife and mother. There is no shortage to the work and the possibilities of what needs to be done. That is why learning how to listen to God and His direction has become so important to me. When a child comes to me with a boo boo, or when my husband comes to me with a complex situation, being able to lean on God for guidance and press into His Word for my reaction has saved me from drowning in uncertainty many many times!


From our Ministry Fundraiser, June of 2008


Next to Jesus, I give all credit my husband Jeff for me being who I have become. There is NO ONE in my life who supports me more than him. NO ONE has stayed up with me all night reading manuscripts, no one else in my adult life has wiped my forehead when I have been sick, no one else has taken the time to take my children for walks around the block (when it is past bedtime), and no one else has shared with me the vision for this Ministry – the ministry of encouraging others that it is TOTALLY possible to walk WHOLLY before God NOW. He is my dream, he was my dream, and he will BE my dream forever more!

As I was getting ready to write tonight, I prayed that God would give me a word for you. Something to encourage you, something to go with our *TIME 4 A CHANGE* series. Instead of a witty quip or a revealing word, He instructed me to share with you a part of my upcoming book: Wholehearted: How I Received Healing From the Inside Out and You Can Too!. What I will be sharing, I have never shared with anyone aside from my editors before. I certainly hope that you enjoy it!


This book took six days to write and two years to edit. In the editing process, the content barely changed but the language and the emotion certainly did. As the Ministry grew and became global, I realized that ministering to “one” person/s wasn’t thinking big enough. What needed to happen was I needed to speak from the heart, and I needed to become more emotional. No matter where you live in the world, I pray that my book will touch you and speak to you as a member of a society that nearly has forgotten completely about God and how He works.

As I began going back and forth between editors and the designer, all in all the response for the book has been positive.  It is comprised of four topics:

• Who I was Before I Began Following After Christ
• How I Changed and was Spiritually Healed
• Saving My Marriage
• Happily Ever After

There are three parts to the book in which I cover these topics, and at the end of the book there is a 22-Day Challenge for both men and women who desire to be made WHOLE; spirit, mind, and body.

Here is an excerpt from Wholehearted: How I Received Healing From the Inside Out and You Can Too!, written by me… Jessica Heilman, (In order to respect the persons in my book, one of my ex-fiances is referred to as “Mr. X” and the other, “Mr. Y”)

He Said, the Other Woman’s Bra was His Cousins

One obscure night at home with my parents, the thought came to me out from out of no-where, “Why not drive up to Washington and surprise Mr. Y? I could be there in just a couple of hours.” I hadn’t planned on making the trip but for some reason I felt this overwhelming desire to jump in the car and head up to Washington to see him, I was fully energized the whole drive up.

Approaching the house it was still dark outside. The sun had not yet risen, and the fog was low and all about me. I quietly got out of the car, unlocked the door and crept up the stairs. Once I got to the upstairs bedroom, I slid under the covers of our bed and fell fast asleep.

Upon waking the next morning, Y was happy to see me. He gave me a kiss on the forehead and went downstairs to eat his breakfast. I stayed in bed and slept-in, the sun was peeking through the clouds and all seemed well.

Slowly waking up and looking around the room everything seemed peaceful. My art was hung, the curtains were up and it was as normal a morning as was possible. Everything was quiet and I was well rested. Yawning, I stretched my arms out and threw my feet over the side of the bed… that is when I saw it.

“Hmm, that’s interesting.” I thought, my eyes drifting to the floor. Lying on the ground near the nightstand was a soft pink push-up bra that was not mine. In shock, I began dialoging with myself wondering how it got there.  I picked up the bra, and looked at it.

“Could this be mine?” I thought to myself.


“How did it end up here?”

“No idea.”

“Is there any other laundry around?”


“Why on earth would there be a bra next to the bed, that doesn’t belong to me?”

“I had better go find out…”

The Confrontation

Surreally, I began walking down the stairs. In the living room I found Y sitting cross-legged on the sofa eating a bowl of cereal. The only sound to be heard in the house was his granola crunching and the Pacific Northwest rain.

As I walked closer to him, he was smiling at me and chewing at the same time, apparently oblivious to what was about to happen. I took the bra out of my grip and asked him whose it was. He looked up at me and said that he didn’t know whose it was, or how it got there. He said that it must have belonged to his cousin who was staying with us. I then asked him why was it in our room, by the bed. His response was this,

“I have nothing to explain.”

That was it. That was his answer. His answer was not to explain anything to me at all. He just sat smacking his granola, cross-legged, and smiling. Here, in my hand I had another woman’s sexy bra and when I asked him whose it was and why it was next to my nightstand, his only answer to me was, “I have nothing to explain to you, I don’t have to defend myself to you.”

Not knowing how to respond, I grabbed a nearby candlestick of mine, it was a brass sunflower. I then stormed out onto the balcony. There was this overwhelming desire to get outside and into the rain away from the situation as fast as I could. I am not sure why I grabbed onto that candlestick, but I had to grab onto something of mine for some reason.

So there I stood on a weathered wooden balcony, overlooking the pond that was in the backyard. I had a clove cigarette in my pocket and I worked at lighting it. Y sat in the living room behind the glass door. He didn’t follow, he just watched me through the glass. There I stood, all alone in the elements with a clove cigarette, a candlestick, and Lord God Almighty.

Sometimes I wonder what wholeness means to others, like the woman who suffers from being overweight, or the man who always winds up spending too much money. What would wholeness look like to them? When I was out on that balcony, I desired WHOLENESS. I had been broken for a looooong time.

I had thought that I really loved him. I had thought that he was “the one”, again. I gave him everything I had to give. I had given both X and Y everything. There were some notably good times in the two relationships. We had spent hours upon hours with each other, after all. With X, I was in High School, and we spent practically every waking moment together. With Y, in addition to spending our non-working hours together, I had always been his full time driver. I took him to work, picked him up from work, and was there to meet him for lunch whenever I could. We taught Sunday school together, we slept together, ate together, and fought often.

Fighting wasn’t as physical as it was just heated communication. He was the first person to encourage me to read books on personal development. He was masterfully cunning, and was always charismatic to a fault. He could get me to do anything he wanted. He had this uncanny way of pulling me out of myself and building me up, just to tear me down when I had made enough headway to believe in myself.

In my narrow and uneducated view, I thought that our relationship was a ‘successful’ one. I thought that as long as I was the “perfect wife”, he would naturally be the “perfect husband” (even though we were not yet legally married). I took all the abuse he gave me, and I still “loved” him, served him, and worked to please him anyway I could. Finding the bra in my room, whether he had nothing to explain or not, whether he was innocent or not, didn’t mater. How he handled the situation revealed to me that infidelity was nothing he thought I should have to be concerned about. The only problem was that I was concerned by now, I knew him too well. He wasn’t above doing anything to get what he wanted.  I also knew that if he wanted another woman, he wasn’t above taking her. How I ever got involved with someone of that character is beyond me.

Outside, I cried for a while and inhaled one last drag from my cigarette. I took the candlestick that was in my right hand, and I threw it as far as I could into the forest behind the yard. It felt as if my heart leapt out of my body and went flying along with it.

That Wonderful Horrible Bra

That bra, that wonderful horrible bra, saved my life. I find it funny how here in my life, God used an inanimate object to get my attention, and so many people think they are beyond hope of God’s use! God can use anyone or anything! Finding it, and having to face the fact that no matter what I did right or wrong, Y was never going to love me or respect me, was haunting. I cannot imagine what my life would be like today if I had not found that bra! Jesus had saved my soul as a child, and that pink push-up bra saved my life as an adult. It woke me up from a delusion of self-righteousness and personal elitism, to a reality that I was totally human and capable of being hurt. I had made a life out of ignoring all reality until my trials eventually would disappear, trying to make-believe my own destiny.  Until I found that bra, I was living life via “ignorance-is-bliss”.

In that moment of brutal confrontation, all I could think to do was to stop and pray. Just like an animal caught in a bear trap will “yelp” until it is rescued, I too was caught in a trap. Praying to God was what came out of me. As I prayed to God for deliverance, the act of throwing the sunflower candlestick as far as I could throw it ended up being symbolic. Symbolically I used the toss to show the Lord that I was done. I was done with chasing men, I was done with stuff, and I was done trying to make things happen my own way. – Wholehearted, pages 25-28


Reliving moments of our past is never easy, writing about and publishing them is even harder. Having your parents, Grandparents and husband read about your past is harder even still. However, understanding that men and women who I do not know, who I LONG to know could be reading my testimony and could benefit from it, well that makes all the sleepless nights worth it all! God is GOOD my friends, and He loves us VERY much! Retelling these moments in my life have brought tremendous healing and power to me as an adult. What is self-assertion worth? A LOT! God wants us to KNOW WHO WE ARE and WHY WE ARE HERE, and if you allow Him to speak directly to you- He WILL, and He will give you a Word as the Brittish say… to boot!

My prayer for you today would be that you could begin to understand that it is NEVER too late to share a word with others or to go after the dream of your heart. What is so different about you now than when you dreamed as a child? You are MORE capable now, MORE passionate now, you have MORE strength than ever and you are MORE man or woman than you have ever been before! YOU ARE WHOLE, you have GOD YOU HAVE EVERYTHING! Don’t quit friends, never stop dreaming! If you think to pray for me- pray in agreement with me that this book will be finished in its final edit by the 28th of May, and that once it is printed and published- it will do what it was meant to do, show men and women that they TOO can be healed from the inside-out, as God is NO respecter of persons!


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When God Gives You A Vision… Make Visionade! *T4AC*

Just like a cold glass of lemonade can quench a thirst- so too can a vision that has been made manifest!

For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay. Hab 2:3 NIV [1984]


Praise God for visions! No really! Isn’t it refreshing to know that God has given us the ability to receive from Him an image of the future, and what it will look like? As I am writing this today, I am hoping that those of you who are holding fast to a vision will be encouraged by the reality that visions are for certain seasons- but most importantly that God CHOOSES to reveal to us these visions, because of how much He LOVES us.

Visions can get pretty frustrating, if you let them. However it isn’t the vision’s fault that we lie awake at night shouting out to God, “When’s it going to be MY turn? When do I get MY vision to be made manifest?!!” No, those times of irritation can best be chalked up to physical exhaustion, having proven the old adage “all work and no play makes Johnny a dull boy” to be true.

When we decide to burn-ourselves-out in hopes of making God’s vision manifest FASTER, we end up missing the journey all together! What benefit is it to us, to gain the whole world and loose our soul? When our visions become more about us than about God, they can end up frustrating us and can easily turn into burdens. (We ALL know what God says about burdens… “My yoke is EASY my burden is light” Matt 11:30) Don’t put it past God to remove something that you might be heartily working on from you, as soon as it becomes a burden to you… God LOVES you and will find someone else to do the job, as soon as your task becomes burdensome! His yoke is EASY! This is why we who are in ministry must recognize the Lord ALWAYS in our work, and we MUST do His work in joy and with rejoicing always! If you want OUT of a ministry… let it become a burden! If you want your vision to become a JOY again… REJOICE at the work you GET to do! Hallelujah!


Scripture says that “Without vision the people perish” Proverbs 29:18. Did you know that according to His Word, God HAS to show you the vision of things to come? He loves you, and WILLS not that you perish. Here upon rereading Proverbs 29:18, you can see that the vision we get from God for the future- is intended to be a hopeful assurance about our future- from Him. If we had NO vision ever given to us, we as His children would all be STUCK perishing. His revelation of visions to us, therefore SEAL our future towards prosperity NOT perishing, flourishing NOT floundering!

But what if the vision is SO GOOD that it hurts…

We all have dreams, aspirations and desires. We all want our visions to manifest YESTERDAY. Even the WORLD groans in impatience for Christ’s coming…

“All creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who his children really are. Against its will, all creation was subjected to God’s curse. But with eager hope, the creation looks forward to the day when it will join God’s children in glorious freedom from death and decay. For we know that all creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. And we believers also groan, even though we have the Holy Spirit within us as a foretaste of future glory, for we long for our bodies to be released from sin and suffering! We, too, wait with eager hope for the day when God will give us our full rights as his adopted children, including the new bodies he has promised us. We were given this hope when we were saved. (If we already have something, we don’t need to hope for it. But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.)” Ro.8:19-25 [click here to read WHM article: IMPATIENT? ]

This impatience and pain in waiting, is not an emotion that is not uncommon to creation. It is a natural emotion that we all have, but the Bible also tells us that we MUST learn to adapt to our situations and begin living with joy in what we currently have

“… train the young women to be sane and sober of mind (temperate, disciplined) and to love their husbands and their children, to be self-controlled, chaste, homemakers, good-natured (kindhearted), adapting and subordinating themselves to their husbands, that the word of God may not be exposed to reproach (blasphemed or discredited).” Titus 2:4-5 AMP

Living an “adaptive” life simply means that we all must learn to live making the very best of every situation we are in. Much like Paul and Silas were found singing in prison in Acts 16:25, so we too are called to sing unto Him a new song. We are all encouraged by His mighty Word to  do our part ONLY and to do it with joy and praise. By doing this, we are able to ALLOW the vision to be made manifest in its due season. Is there anything that you can do to speed up labor and delivery of a baby… would you want to?


Our testimonies aren’t for us. Sounds strange to read doesn’t it? Really though, our testimonies are meant to GLORIFY God and encourage the Body. Revelations says that “The testimony of Jesus IS the spirit of prophecy” (Rev 19:10), our victories are NOT ABOUT US AT ALL- they are about Jesus, and the prophetic Word to another that “if He did it for ME, He can do it for YOU”!

So maybe you have had a vision from God: a new job, a new career, a baby, financial breakthrough, a marriage, a new car, a new house… an airplane! Perhaps there is this vision that you have been working toward that has unfortunately become a burden to you- BEGIN REJOICING TODAY!

Adapt to your circumstances, make that vision visionade! Hold that vision in your heart and recognize that when the vision DOES become reality (because it WILL), recognize that it was God who gave you the vision and the manifestation and that it wasn’t FOR YOU- but it was for others! In order that you could begin to speak; job health, child health, financial wealth, marital joy, etc… over the lives of others! It’s ALL about Jesus!

“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.” Matt 6:33-35 MSG


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